I love opening the fridge and seeing leftover steak because that means beef for breakfast!
Jacob was home for breakfast yesterday and I asked him if he wanted a breakfast sammie too – he never says no if I offer to make him food. He ate his breakfast and said “you are the only person I know who just won’t eat a bowl of cereal for breakfast. So true – and for the record, lettuce on a breakfast sammie is delicious – just a bit of extra crunch. The English muffin is 3, the egg/egg white is 2, the 1/2 ounce cheese is 2 and 1.5 ounces of steak is only 1 – so 8 points total.
I had planned on taking a long walk between the rain yesterday, but just as I was about to go, I checked my blood sugar and it was 134 – too low to walk because my blood sugar would drop too much. So I decided to skip the insulin at lunch and go to the gym in the afternoon. Still haven’t been to the grocery store yet, so I spun the refrigerator wheel for lunch. I had leftover pulled pork, which reminded me of coleslaw, and I suddenly realized I had everything to make a slaw to go with the pork. I hate mayo based slaws though – I am a vinegar girl through and through. I think that’s why I love my Aunt Martha’s pork bbq so much – it’s east Carolina slaw that my grandpa used to make with Tabasco, crushed red pepper and copious amounts of vinegar.
When I went to a foodie event last December, one of the vendors was Co-op Sauce, where I bought a poblano mustard.
You could actually substitute any mustard you like, but I like the extra kick of this one in this slaw.
- 2 tablespoons poblano mustard
- 2 tablespoons apple cider vinegar
- 1 teaspoon garlic
- 2 tablespoons light agave necar
- 1 tablespoon grapeseed oil
Mix everything together and store in a mason jar.
For my lunch, I cut 1/2 cup of red cabbage, shredded one small carrot and two small radishes, and tossed in 1 tablespoon of that vinaigrette above. I called that 6 servings for 2 points each, but ended up using only half of the slaw on my tostadas for 1 point.
I reheated the 3 ounces of the pork and then tossed it in Stubb’s Texas sriracha bbq sauce – so there was a TON of flavor on that plate. Crunchy, spicy and well – porky! The best combo ever and only 8 smart points.
Finally my blood sugar was high enough to go to the gym. I ended up doing an hour on the treadmill at 3.5 mph at 8% incline – it helps if you watch a whole episode of property brothers to make the time fly by.
I decided not to go to WW this morning. I’ve done some emotional eating since Hannah and I had our talk – I love that she opened up to me, but Tony has been on my mind a lot lately. I keep thinking of things I should have said or done, and thinking about the future we never got to share. I’ve cried. But I think it’s a good thing – I need to get past my loss so that I can move forward, and I think every day I wake up, it’s a step in the right direction.
It’s one of the reasons I made fried rice for dinner, so that I could watch the video of him making it so I remember how he made it. I loved hearing his voice again. But, I did change his recipe up just a tiny bit – I used leftover grilled chicken and threw that in at the end, and I subbed in Ponzu sauce for the soy sauce. I ended up using a bag of broccoli slaw that I found in the fridge for my veggies, so this literally came together in about 5 minutes.
I found it ironic that I used the same bowl to plate my dinner as Tony did in the video. You guys, I have about 80 bowls to choose from, so I thought that was interesting! All I know is that I still miss him a lot. Our marriage wasn’t perfect by any stretch of the imagination, and if I am being truthful, he was difficult to live with at times because he always thought he was right. But in loss, all the good things I remember about him rise to the top. And there are a lot of great memories to choose from – so I have to hold on to those memories.
I just have to remind myself that eating shit isn’t going to make me feel better or bring him back. So here’s to a new week (on Thursday!) of no emotional eating. I am challenging myself to 7 days of mindful eating – here’s to a new week!
I do love yogurt with cereal and fruit in the morning but at the weekend I love me some breakfast that has eggs in it.
And I love both in my salads: mayo dressings and vinegar dressings. I variate with it. I brought a Greek salad to lunch today with only a little of basil flavoured olive oil.
Nobody is perfect and only remembering the good stuff isn’t good either. In the end there usually always is more good memories to remember and that’s not different for you. You loved each other through good and bad times.
Poblano Mustard? Mmmm…
And that video of Tony… I remember that one. Aww…
I love savory breakfasts and my family thinks it is pretty strange when I eat leftovers for breakfast! I’m sorry you are going through a rough patch. I love your words when you say that “all the good things rise to the top”. I’m glad that memories of our loved ones are like that. It’s so very true. Hugs! I hope this weekend will give you some cheering up…….
I liked a bowl of cereal as an afternoon snack, but not for breakfast. Dang it, now I am craving Cocoa Puffs! 😉
I’m sorry you’ve been feeling the loss of Tony extra hard this week; I’m sure it’s normal, to have this kind of ebb and flow with grief, but that doesn’t make it any easier. Big hugs to you.
You are such a strong lady, and anything you set your mind to, you will be successful!
Retirement is a big adjustment, but I am taking each day as it comes. Not sure if I should have rigid schedule, or go with the flow? The only thing I am sure of is I DON’T MISS WORKING!!?????
You’re awesome Biz. I am so happy I found you. xoxoxoxo
That mustard sounds amazing. We love anything spicy and tangy! And I totally agree Beth, no mayo slaw for this gal!! It’s okay to grieve and feel down. You are human. We can’t always have a tough exterior as much as we would like. You are doing great regardless. Keep you chin up hun.
((((hugs)))). It must be so bittersweet to watch the video. Happy to see him and remembering those times and then sad because he isnt here. My heart just breaks for you. ps: I never eat cereal for breakfast( except oatmeal). Julie eats it every single morning, unless I cook her something like pancakes or french toast on the weekend.
I never even liked cereal as a kid, except for oatmeal. I know that’s weird for a kid! Once I got to be a teenager I would often eat just a piece of toast or not at all because I didn’t want cereal.
Sorry to hear you are struggling but I can promise you it really does get better.
Recognizing the pattern is such a big step I think! I’ve had a rough week at work which has led me to poor food choices (out of convenience and truthfully just searching for some comfort/getting wrapped up in the warmth of pepperoni grease) and more drinks than usual. its hard to acknowledge the mistake, learn from it, and move on – but you do such an amazing job at it! xoxo
You and I are food sisters–I can NEVER eat a bowl of cereal for breakfast! I am a savory girl. I also love my slaw super vinegary; my poor husband isn’t a vinegar lover so he always thinks it’s a puckery affair when I make slaw. I’m sorry that you are going through some pain and missing Tony, but I do think that part of healing is letting yourself feel those painful twinges. You’re in my thoughts.