Thanks for all your comments to yesterday’s post, and for having faith in me! I will respond to all the comments tomorrow when I am off, but I just wanted to thank you from the bottom of my heart.
I am realizing that I am a controlling person. I like to know what’s going to happen, how things are going to work out. Take yesterday for instance. I got to the shop to start getting the stuff ready for the market. On the schedule it said I was training a new person. He was a nice boy about 18 or 19 years old. But, he didn’t have a car and my car just fits all the stuff I need to take. So I just told the owner I’d do it alone, and I felt so much better about the whole day. I know what I am doing, I can now put the tent up and take it down by myself. I didn’t have to make small talk with a teenage boy for a 45 minute drive there and back, and since I was driving, now back seat driver syndrome!
I decided to start the day out with a big breakfast. I forgot about the quiche I made, yesterday was about the last day I could eat some, so I heated that up with uncured bacon, and 8 ounces of potatoes. This giant breakfast came in at 14 smart points.
In my market lunch bag I packed a 4 point turkey sandwich, grapes, carrots, 4 bottles of water and serving of rice crackers – 8 points total. It was hot yesterday. The temp was 90, but with the heat index it felt like 96. I drank every drop of my water and didn’t need to pee once because of the sweat. I thought you could see the sweat in this pic after I packed up, but I don’t think you can – trust me, it was there!
I was literally 1/2 a mile from the shop when I realized I was being pulled over. Fudge crackers. I thought it may have been because I had so much shit in my car I could barely see out the rear view mirror. Nope, turns out I turned right on a red light – I didn’t see the sign. I think I was just so happy to be 75% done with driving for the day, that I didn’t even notice it. Luckily it’s a citation, like a parking ticket, and won’t go on my driving record – but it’s $50. Really?!
But as I finished unpacking and started driving home, I thought, there are worse world problems, so I just let it go.
By the time I got home it was nearly 10:00. I ended up picking up my grocery store’s take and bake pizza and added a bit of balsamic glaze over the top – it hit the spot, and two slices were 9 points, taking me just 1 point over for the day. Not bad!
Today I’ll be in Lincoln Square. High temp today? 70!! And overcast, so it will be perfect. Still another long day, but it beats sitting at a desk all day doing something I didn’t like anymore – I need to keep peppering myself with positives instead of negatives. I know I’ll find my way eventually – I just hope it happens before I run out of money! 
Make it a great day!
Control Freak here too. It is so difficult to let anyone else take over anything. In school I hated group projects and usually did everything myself and just let everyone else sign off they did it. I did let them do the presentation part. I’ve never been a get up in front of people person. The answer to your new career is here somewhere. We just have to explore it.
Let’s shake hands: I’m a control person too.
Only $50 🙂 driving through red is double the money here.
Thanks for putting a positive spin on the $50 – could have been worse! And glad that I am not the only control freak – now I know where Hannah gets it from! 😀
Love your blog and have been following you for some time. I’ve been a WW member forever just about, and one of the stories that came out of one of those meetings was a congratulations for this older lady that only lost about 1/4lb. a week, but she kept on plugging until she got to goal weight. I’ve always remembered her determination and want it for myself. So hang in there. Thanks for all the positive, uplifting events in your life that you share with us. Love your recipes!
Thanks so much Annette! When I first lost 70 pounds back in 1999, there were sometimes weeks where I was down only 1/2 a pound a week, but I kept at it – just a reminder that consistency, not perfection, will eventually pay off!
Hugs!
You not only pack a lot in one car but, you sure can pack “a lot of life in one day”!!!! I have to say that for you. Maybe we all are a bit controlling at times….just like to know what the next step is before we “step in it” (don’t want to step in a pile of pooh!!!)
Uge…a $50 citation…not a happy ending to a busy day. BUT that pizza sure looks good enough to eat!!! Keep up the good work in all areas!!!
Thanks Louise – I appreciate your support! 😀
No right on red? Is that a law there or only if posted? You will find your way, we all have faith in you. How long is the market season? Have you thought about working for yourself? Private cheffing or making lunches for office workers? I once worked at a building where this person came around with a cooler filled with salads and sammies and fruit, etc. That was years ago so I’m sure its way more sophisticated now, but you have so much talent that I’m sure you will come up with something awesome.
There was a sign posted, and I just didn’t see it. There was zero traffic around too, which sucks.
Thanks for your unwavering support! I love all your ideas – the problem is I need to find a job that provides insurance, and working for myself isn’t an option at this time. I don’t get Tony’s social security benefits until I turn 59, which is still 11 years away.
Hugs!
That’s a plus with ACA- you can get health insurance at the marketplace so you don’t have to get a job with health insurance. Also, your diabetes can’t be used against you as a pre-existing condition. I started my career in my 50s and I still love it. I’m a social worker who deals with persons with disabilities. I just love advocating for my clients and I have no plans to retire. I think you can find a job you really enjoy to just support yourself- you don’t have any kids you have to take care of and probably few bills. You could rent an apartment too! My plan is to sell my house and rent- I can use the proceeds for whatever I like. Have you figured out exactly how much money you need monthy? That is a first step. You can do it!
My mortgage is only $377 a month for a 1400 square foot house on an acre lot – I couldn’t rent a studio apartment for that amount! Even with my homeowners insurance and taxes, it’s only $727 – still couldn’t rent a studio apartment for that. Yep, my monthly expenses are quite hefty at the moment since I am paying $1000 a month for insurance and still paying for Tony’s car and insurance for one of the kids to use since they only have one car. That will be paid off in October of 2017, which will save me about $400 a month right there. It’s all good – I know I’ll find something – keeping the faith!
I started to receive your blogs a month or so ago…….I don’t know why but it doesn’t really matter.
You seem (and look) like a very nice person and I enjoy following your “adventures”. I am a little in awe of your willingness to post in such a revealing way.
I am having a bit of difficulty in putting together your family make-up…..husband,boyfriend,kids ?
Hey! Thanks for finding my little neck of the woods in blog land – I don’t know how you started getting my blog via email, but like you said – it doesn’t really matter!
I sadly lost my husband of 14 years in December 2014 after a short illness. He’d been on and off again sick since 2007, and ended up dying of renal failure due to congestive heart failure.
We actually met online in 2000 when my daughter was 8 and my step-son was 10. We moved in together three weeks after we met and married six months after we met.
You can read about my daughter here:
http://www.mybizzykitchen.com/the-first-person-to-change-my-life-forever/
You can read about my husband here:
http://www.mybizzykitchen.com/the-second-person/
You can read his unusual obituary here:
http://www.davenportfamily.com/memsol.cgi?user_id=1469312
I quit my 20+ year career as a legal secretary to find a job working in the food industry, and for the short term and working farmers markets this summer.
Let me know if you have any questions! 😀