If I were to describe the last six weeks of my life I would say this. It’s like I am on a Merry Go Round, and it keeps spinning faster and faster and I keep trying to get the operators attention to have them slow it down or stop it, but no one is there to hear me and it just continues to spin around and I just have to hold on for dear life.
One thing I do know, is that life is change. While obviously I have had the biggest life change when Tony died, life does in fact go on without him, whether I like it or not.
One good change that has happened? HANNAH GOT ENGAGED!
Yep – Hannah and her boyfriend of five years got engaged a couple weeks ago. Not only that but . . . they are moving in with me. Like today. They have been living with Jacob’s Mom in a Chicago bungalow where they had a type of in-law suite in the basement with their own living space, and only had to contribute a small amount towards the rent and it was a perfect situation. Fast forward and Jacob’s Mom ran into a high school sweet heart at the grocery store this past fall, they rekindled their relationship, they got engaged and MARRIED on 12/13/14 and she’s moving in with her husband obviously and that means no more super cheap rent for the kids.
I’ve never lived alone. In fact these last few weeks have been the longest I’ve lived by myself in my whole life. But that won’t last long because today not only do I get two young adults moving in, I also get . . . two dogs! I really hope the older dog becomes my lap dog, we’ll see. Their tiny dog just wants to lick the tears off my face!
So for now, the Merry Go Round keeps spinning around – so I guess I’ll just settle in and enjoy the ride! CONGRATS HANNAH AND JACOB! I love you!
Awesome news, Biz! I was thinking you should probably get a dog eventually… But this sounds even better. (Plus your house will be really clean. *wink*)
Congratulations to Hannah and Jacob, what a wonderful news.
And not only you got two lovely people living with you, you also get two dogs, how great is that? I’m a bit “jealous” of Hannah and Jacob because they got to eat your delicious food day in day out.
Great news Biz and I’m so happy for you.
Beth, I remember meeting Hannah when she was 8 years old… she can’t be engaged!!! WOW! WOW! WOW! It is so hard to believe she is all grown up and starting her life and engaged to be married. Congrats to Hannah! What an exciting time for her!! I do believe all things happen for a reason and it seems it has come at an opportune time to help you begin working through losing Jeff. I have been thinking about you so much the past several weeks reading all of your posts and wondering how you have been. I am so happy that Hannah will be with you. I just wanted to let you know that you have been in my thoughts and prayers. All the best to all of you as you start the next chapter of your life… 🙂
Congrats Hannah!
Oh my goodness what WONDERFUL news! I’m so happy for your family!
Wonderful news! Congratulations to you all! 🙂
Congratulations!! You deserve some great news and I am so happy they are moving in with you!! God really does work in mysterious ways….I hope and know Hannah fills your heart with love…and gee it is soooo much better to cook for three than one!!!
Oh wow…congrats to Hannah and I’m so glad you won’t be alone for long my friend. God acts in mysterious ways, doesn’t he? Merry Christmas, Biz!
I saw this on FB but wanted to say – huge congrats to Hannah – so very exciting.
And, I love that they are moving in with you – it will be nice to have them around!!
I have to agree with Louise, there were a couple pics I thought were Tony in your collage! How uncanny. Congrats to Hannah and you both! I hope them moving in helps you…it might not slow the merry go round but maybe distract you enough to forget it’s going so fast. 🙂
Congrats to Hannah!!!! Merry Christmas!!
Congratulations to Hannah and Jacob what a lovely couple! Merry Christmas Biz
Yay–fabulous news and congratulations to the lovebirds! Merry Christmas, Biz.
Aww! CONGRATS to them!
Congrats, Hanna,
My thoughts and prayers are with you this Holiday season! Congrats on your daughter getting engaged! But I know how hard the holidays are when you have lost someone so important in your life. I lost my husband of 26 years in 2011, and this is the first year I have even felt like celebrating the holidays. So hang in there, it does get easier (somewhat), but know that people love you and are sending you strength and prayers. Sincerely, Terri James
Wonderful news, congrats to Hannah and Jacob. How fun they’ll be living with you, a welcome change. Merry Christmas!
They are flippin’ adorable together! Her ring is very similar to mine too. So, so, so glad they are moving in with you. Sounds like a win/win situation. I know you’ll enjoy cooking for them too.
Merry Christmas Biz! And congratulations to Hannah let the wedding planning begin!
What great news all the way around. Even in death….Tony is taking care of you. Sweet! Almost looks like Hannah picked out a guy that has a lot of that “Tony look” about him. I had to look twice at a few of the pictures cause they reminded me of Tony. Oh and now you get to cook for them and their dogs and Hannah will keep you organized….what a great team. I think this all comes in the “healing package” for you Biz. Enjoy the ride and a new phase in your life. The merry go round will slow down so you can catch your breath…..ah…but then comes the grandkids!!! (dogs for now) 🙂 😀 Merry Christmas and what a great present to you from Hannah!!!!
How awesome!!! Congrats to Hannah! And so glad they’ll be staying with you <3 <3
Congrats!! I said to J a couple weeks ago ” I hope Hannah moves back in with Biz”. Yay!!
CONGRATULATIONS Hannah and Jacob!!!!!! So happy for them, and happy for you Vat! (and dogs? YAY!) Lots of love to all!!!!
This is fantastic news!!!! Congrat’s to your daughter and her Fiancee. Wonderful.
Warm hugs to you Biz!
Congratulations to Hannah – and you! It is nice to have some very good things to celebrate right now. Hugs to you and I am glad you have family with you.
My Hubby and I lived for a short time with my parents and though my mom was glad to help us out she said these words…..”no kitchen is big enough for two women.’ I do not know who was more glad when we moved out……. It brought a lot of stress for all of us, but we worked hard at it and thank God, it did not last long! And remember that you need time to grieve at your own leisure. Healing takes time…sometimes a long time and we cannot put a time limit on it. Congrads though to Hanna and Jacob. How exciting for all of you as you start these new seasons of life. I know it will be good. Dogs and grandchildren…someday. Wow! Awesome!
Congratulations to Hannah and Jacob! What exciting news! I hope you guys have a very Merry Christmas. I know it won’t be easy, but you’ll make it through because you’re one tough cookie. I am thinking of you and keeping you in my prayers. I feel like I know you.
Congrats to Hannah & Jacob! So happy for them and for you to have loved ones around & dogs!!! Merry Christmas, Biz.
Congratulations to Hannah and Jacob!!! What exciting news!!! And I’m so glad they’re moving in with you…you get people to cook for, and company, and a live-in organizer, and DOGS! 🙂
Congrats to Hannah! I am glad you won’t have to be alone now. I’ll be praying for you this Christmas I know it will be hard but take it one minute at a time. I am sick today but I got meds this morning so hopefully I will mend up fast. Take care.
Congrats to Hannah and Jacob!
That is wonderful! Congrats!
Oh yay!! Congrats you your Hannah!! And to you! Merry Christmas!
*Congrats TO your Hannah! (Sorry for the Typo!)
Wow! Congratulations to Hannah and Jacob!! The kids in the house, a lap dog and one to dry your tears and a wedding to plan. Whew!
Best,
Bonnie
I’m so happy you have such great news at this time in your life. It perfectly illustrates your point that life does go on. I think Jeff would be happy you’ll have loved ones with you as you get used to this new phase of your life.
I feel like your friend just from reading your blog and have had you in my prayers the past couple of months.
Merry Christmas!
Yay Hannah! And yay Biz!
Congratulations to Hannah & Jacob!
Very excited for you that they are moving in with you!
Blessings to you Biz and to you daughter and future SIN. You are in my prayers this year. You are an inspiration.
What great news. Congrats to Hannah and Jacob! Five years really??? I love big lap dogs 🙂 The Merry go round analogy was such a perfect description.
Oh Biz, that’s wonderful news! Congrats to Hannah! And how exciting to have them all moving in with you. A new chapter… Take care! 🙂
Wonderful news!!!!!! Congratulations hannah & jacob!