is an invisible blanket I wear on an almost daily basis. Almost all of it is self-imposed and I’ve been like this for years. I am the quintessential people pleaser, didn’t matter if I wasn’t happy, but if everyone else around me was, then I considered that a success.
But I am older now, and I just want to put that blanket in a bonfire and set it on fire. I know I cannot control the people around me and trying to do so isn’t making me happy, so I just have to let it go. Do you think I can?
So I am returning My Bizzy Kitchen to rainbows and butterflies again, and talk about what makes me happy – cooking! š Thank you though for all the virtual hugs and emails – I sincerely appreciate it. š
Over the weekend I made a new dry rub for a small boneless pork roast. It was delicious!
Wet Rub for Pork – 2 PointsPlus for the rub
- 2 teaspoons olive oil
- 1 tablespoon stone ground mustard
- 1 tablespoon fresh rosemary, finely chopped
- 1 teaspoon minced garlic
- salt and pepper
I let the roast sit on the counter for 30 minutes before grilling it – then spooned the mixture over the roast – a tablespoon of rosemary might seem like a lot, but it mellows when its grilled and isn’t too overpowering.
I bought a ton of fruit over the weekend – I was happy to find raspberries and blackberries for just 1.99 a pint. Breakfast was an egg white open sammie on wholegrain bread and a cup of raspberries and blackberries – only 6 Points for this whole plate. š
We had a chance of rain off and on yesterday, so I decided to walk instead of bike – it started out as a light drizzle, but then just got humid – I got in a nice 55 minute walk at lunch. Lunch was leftovers again – leftover chicken from my last Friday grill at my office – they morphed into chicken tacos with a peach and a pear on the side – the pear was amazing, I threw the peach out – ew. Lunch comes in at only 7 PP.
I had defrosted some sort of “mystery” meat. I am the worst at labeling frozen food – I always think “Oh, I’ll remember what this is.” Um, that hardly ever happens. I’ve been known to bring homemade marinara to work for lunch, when I thought it was roasted red pepper soup.
So I couldn’t tell if the meat I pulled out to defrost was a chuck roast, or what, so I was pleasantly surprised that it was a sirloin steak. š I served it with corn on the cob and canned baby peas.
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I just happened to get July’s issue of Bon Appetit so I was reading that as I grilled last night – the cover story was “how to grill the perfect steak” and I love how it said “salt and pepper – the little black dress of beef – is all a steak needs.” I couldn’t agree more.
And while reading Bon Appetit I found a recipe I need to recreate (sans the grape tomatoes). Why have I not had halloumi cheese before? Grilled halloumi cheese with watermelon and basil-mint oil – yum!
It was a day late, but here is the t-shirt I got Tony for Father’s Day – he actually sent me the link as a hint – sorry for all the vegetarians who may read my blog!
Stats for Monday
- 31 points (including wine)
- 55 minute walk
- average blood sugar 129
Come back tomorrow to see what I made with grilled butternut squash – its delicious!
Hope you have a great day! š
That pork looks sooooooo good! Sorry to hear you’ve been having a tough time lately – you’re awesome and you can totally beat that guilt!
People pleasing is difficult and I am afflicted…my hubby on the other hand most of the time could care less….we make an interesting pair š I LOVE your pork recipe…I was just thinking about doing pork chops on the grill and thought that I should come see what recipes you have….I might try this as a rub on those! Thanks!
Have a good day…..
*raises hand* Guilty here, too. I’m the people pleasing-just-want-everyone-to-be-happy-and-get-along-hates-confrontation type. For me, unfortunately, that burden translates into eating. Lots. But, I’m working on it and I know we’ll both get better about it as we get older! Let me know when you stack up the logs…I’ll bring the lighter š
I love that shirt!
Dropping your people pleasing ways won’t be easy, but I’m glad you are going to try. And hey, if it gets too crazy, you can always hop a plane and fly out to Texas – there are lots of people here who would love to see you!
You can do it, Biz! I’m also a people pleaser and I feel exactly the way you do. I’m ready to get rid of this “blanket” once and for all!
I missed yesterday’s post somehow and was like “what is Biz talking about???” until I went back to see if I missed something. Sorry things aren’t sunshine and rainbows in your house right now, but I’m also glad that you’re not going to blame yourself. BTW, I gave you a blog award today! Come on over to claim it. š
How funny–I have that same recipe bookmarked in my Bon Appetit! I discovered halloumi two years ago and have been hooked ever since!
I used to feel guilt all the time and still do to some extent. Marrying a guy who never feels any guilt and starting to take care of myself these past few years has definitely helped. I don’t know if it will ever go away fully, but it can be subsided at least. Self-imposed guilt just hurts you!
Halloumi is a miracle cheese! I’ve grilled it with cherries before and loved it! The salty cheese and the sweet fruit go amazing together!
I’m a hugger so you get another virtual hug! *hug* š
I know exactly what you mean about the guilt and trying to please everyone but myself. Can I throw my guilt blanket in the bonfire with yours?
Love the shirt you got for Tony!
Have a great day!
One of my best guy friend’s (who lives in NY but is from AL and drives a truck) has that on his car – YES, a bumper sticker. It’s hilarious. He’s such a conudrum that it cracks me up.
That pork rub looks outstanding!!
I brought my Bon Appetit to work today to read during lunch š I hope I get to it and the doctors don’t yap through our lunch!! Unlikely, but I’ll get to it sooner or later! I was very disappointed with Cooking Light this month. All the recipes were boring. I will happily spend 100 calories more on a dish that has some flavor!!!
halloumi cheese – sigh. It’s soooo good. I’ve only been able to find it at Whole Foods, though.
As always you leave me salivating! š
Grilled BN squash? What a good idea! I’m totally doing that! Sorry to hear about the guilt. HUGE virtual hug from me to you. Summer fruit totally rocks. Bummer the peach was a bust. If I could send you some local SC peaches without them getting all bruised and old, I would!
You little grilling wonder!!!
Love everything about the post (in fact, if you read over my post today, I talk about my garden… I have the most wonderful patch of Rosemary right now and a pork loin in the freezer that is calling me! Hope you add this to erecipecards. SPeaking of which, i did a small edit job on your profile so that your user name shows up with a link to your blog on all your submissions.
BUT…
Really??? 2 points for the rub??? What is on that that isn’t free points? The mustard maybe? Sounds high to me, maybe why my ass is so big… but I digress…
And the grilled cheese… please do a more detailed “how to” on that one!
And I will continue to send out virtual hugs
Dave
The olive oil is the only points in the rub – the rest is tasty and free! š
Feeling guilty is like rocking in a rocking chair. It gives you something to do but it doesn’t get you anywhere.
You sure can make healthy look fabulous.
i’m a total people pleaser too, i totally get the guilt. i hope everything works out!
can i come grill with you? everything looks so good. i’ve never had halloumi, but it looks incredible with those grill marks!
I understand the guilt. I am a major people-pleaser. It’s fine and good to please people sometimes, but not always under all conditions with no regard to anything else. Great job letting go of the guilt! I really need to improve at that.
Biz, I have been a people please for all or most of my 54 years. If you can burn that baby before you become me, DO!!!!! Do what makes your heart sing! It is, after all, your life, your blog!
I’m a people pleaser too (and was raised Catholic) so I totally understand the blanket of guilt. Send it packing!!!
Where did you get that shirt? Dave would wear it with pride for sure!
On amazon.com – I think this link will work – if not, just type in “meat is murder” in the search engine on amazon and it will pop up. š
http://www.amazon.com/Meat-Murder-Tasty-Shirt-4XL-Black/dp/B001VIPG9U/ref=sr_1_3?ie=UTF8&qid=1308667162&sr=8-3
Yes – you can!
No guilt Biz. I know it’s easier to say than to do (I have the same problem) but we can’t beat ourselves up!