is an invisible blanket I wear on an almost daily basis. Almost all of it is self-imposed and I’ve been like this for years. I am the quintessential people pleaser, didn’t matter if I wasn’t happy, but if everyone else around me was, then I considered that a success.
But I am older now, and I just want to put that blanket in a bonfire and set it on fire. I know I cannot control the people around me and trying to do so isn’t making me happy, so I just have to let it go. Do you think I can?
So I am returning My Bizzy Kitchen to rainbows and butterflies again, and talk about what makes me happy – cooking! š Thank you though for all the virtual hugs and emails – I sincerely appreciate it. š
Over the weekend I made a new dry rub for a small boneless pork roast. It was delicious!
Wet Rub for Pork – 2 PointsPlus for the rub
- 2 teaspoons olive oil
- 1 tablespoon stone ground mustard
- 1 tablespoon fresh rosemary, finely chopped
- 1 teaspoon minced garlic
- salt and pepper
I let the roast sit on the counter for 30 minutes before grilling it – then spooned the mixture over the roast – a tablespoon of rosemary might seem like a lot, but it mellows when its grilled and isn’t too overpowering.
I bought a ton of fruit over the weekend – I was happy to find raspberries and blackberries for just 1.99 a pint. Breakfast was an egg white open sammie on wholegrain bread and a cup of raspberries and blackberries – only 6 Points for this whole plate. š
We had a chance of rain off and on yesterday, so I decided to walk instead of bike – it started out as a light drizzle, but then just got humid – I got in a nice 55 minute walk at lunch. Lunch was leftovers again – leftover chicken from my last Friday grill at my office – they morphed into chicken tacos with a peach and a pear on the side – the pear was amazing, I threw the peach out – ew. Lunch comes in at only 7 PP.
I had defrosted some sort of “mystery” meat. I am the worst at labeling frozen food – I always think “Oh, I’ll remember what this is.” Um, that hardly ever happens. I’ve been known to bring homemade marinara to work for lunch, when I thought it was roasted red pepper soup.
So I couldn’t tell if the meat I pulled out to defrost was a chuck roast, or what, so I was pleasantly surprised that it was a sirloin steak. š I served it with corn on the cob and canned baby peas.
I just happened to get July’s issue of Bon Appetit so I was reading that as I grilled last night – the cover story was “how to grill the perfect steak” and I love how it said “salt and pepper – the little black dress of beef – is all a steak needs.” I couldn’t agree more.
And while reading Bon Appetit I found a recipe I need to recreate (sans the grape tomatoes). Why have I not had halloumi cheese before? Grilled halloumi cheese with watermelon and basil-mint oil – yum!
It was a day late, but here is the t-shirt I got Tony for Father’s Day – he actually sent me the link as a hint – sorry for all the vegetarians who may read my blog!
Stats for Monday
- 31 points (including wine)
- 55 minute walk
- average blood sugar 129
Come back tomorrow to see what I made with grilled butternut squash – its delicious!
Hope you have a great day! š
Unless you’re Jewish, you really can’t do guilt. They have it down to a science! š So kick it to the curb, and YOU be the happy one for a change.
We don’t want butterflies and rainbows, we want the real biz-ness ha.
I loved all the food on this post, except the meat! And that shirt made me LOL!
Tee hee hee! Love the shirt!!
I know what you mean by guilt…but as a Christian I’m learning to let go of the daily guilt. My motto is to live for God only, and to please God is my joy. No guilt in that.
I think the best way is to be happy yourself, and get people following your self-happiness. Can’t change them, let them change themselves by following you!
Glad you are doing your best to let go of the guilt Biz. It is MUCH easier said than done!!! Take care of yourself!!
You can burn that blanket. I grew up catholic, so I know all about guilt! It just takes practice over and over and over. You will get there. Put yourself first all the time. When you do that, it isn’t selfish – it just allows you to be able to help others better when your own needs are met.
Let go of the guilt…it is not worth it. All of the meat looked fabulous, I am starving.
Burn baby burn. Let that guilt go. you can do it. The steak is fab and I agree salt and pepper is all it needs. Oh lord I am HUNGRY!
Oh hugs girl! I am virtually hugging you right now! We love you and glad your back to what makes both you and I happy- cooking! This food looks insane! So delicious and so perfect for summertime!
I am SUCH a people pleaser. I had a moment yesterday when a co-worker was trying to screw me over and I had to put my foot down. It was hard for my people pleasing self, but it made me happy as a result. I’m sure she’s pissed, but that’s her problem, not mine š
I just caught up on your last post. It’s hard to stay out of it when two people you love don’t get along. But I think in the long run it’s better for them to work it out… And it’s so important to make sure YOU are happy! š And I totally understand making your blog your “happy place.” That’s what I do for the most part. It’s my place to focus on the positive things in my life. But if you want to share, we are here!
We don’t have a grill right now, and the pic of the grilled butternut squash makes me want to run out and buy one! š
I try to be a people pleaser but realize that doesn’t really work all the time. You should go for it!
Everything looks delicious!
Can’t wait to check back to see that delicious butternut squash! Yum!
Onwards and upwards! Glad today is a new day full of possibility š
Also just have to say (my 15-year old self is totally about to shine through)…the picture of the squash is totally x-rated (depending on who you ask)…and I kind of love it š Made me LOL when I saw it…yes, this is maturity for you right here š
You totally can do it – you can’t feel guilty about how others feel. š
yes you can! in fact, i hope i can too š love that rub… and grilled butternut, hello lover š **hugs**
everything looks so delicious! my mouth is watering!
Good for you Biz, burn that blanket! I also struggle with this, and know how hard it is just to admit it.
My hubby would love that shirt, he has one that says “I love animals…….they taste good.” I’m kinda embarrassed when he wears it though! š