I can’t stop eating.  It started on Saturday when I picked my way through the day eating all the goodies at The Chopping Block.   Then after dinner on Saturday night I ate half a bag of Dorito’s the kids had in the pantry.  Then I had a couple glasses of wine.  I stopped at Trader Joe’s on my way home from work on Saturday and somehow a container of their crack tiny chocolate chip cookies landed in my basket.

Over the course of the next two days I pretty much ate the whole container.  I threw the container out (still with cookies in it) before even attempting to scan it to see how much damage I had done.  Gah.

So last night I slowed my roll, and really started to get to the root of my mini binge.

I was so happy to work again at The Chopping Block – you guys all know that it’s my happy place.  When I was talking to my buddy Nick he said “are you happy?”  It’s a tricky question.  Yes and no.  I had finally wrapped my brain about having the house to myself after the kadults were moving out and not having 15 half empty Starbuck’s cups around my house, the perpetual mound of laundry in my basement, and just getting the house back to normal and actually having a dining room where I could eat dinner.

Mind you I am happy with their decision to wait, instead of using all their savings for the closing costs.  I just wonder how long it will be before I don’t stare at boxes both at home and at work anymore!

And I thought about it, and the last time I hit 20 pounds lost (a month ago) I kind of did the same thing.  Like self sabatoging myself.  Like I feel I don’t deserve to lose more weight?  I don’t know, but I know it has to stop, and it will.  I am half way to my goal weight – only 20 pounds away.  So there most likely will be a gain on the scale this week, but thankfully I am mindful of what I am doing after a few days, instead of days/weeks/months before getting back on track.


While I love my granola in my parfaits, I have to say I am loving the Premier Protein chocolate peanut butter bar chopped up on top – it seriously tastes like Snickers.  I used Chobani (2), my one point fruit sauce, mixed berry (1) and half a protein bar (4). 

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It’s still chilly in Chicago.  I woke up to  37 degree weather, so it’s still winter jacket weather.  By the time I left to meet my sister for our walk, it was up to 49, but windy, so it still felt like in the 30s.  We walked pretty much the whole lunch hour, nearly all the way to Navy Pier.

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Loved that the sun was out though!

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I had some fruit when I got back from my walk, and when my boss left for a meeting at 2:30, put my lunch together – the leftover bahn mi bowl.  Guys, seriously could eat this once a week it’s that good.  I love the combination of flavors, the spicy pork with the pickled veggies.  

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I didn’t do a full meal plan this week, so it’s going to be like I am on an episode of Chopped this week.  I have plenty of food to use.  I peeked in my pantry and saw this instant polenta, and then suddenly the dish came to my head:  leftover grilled pork over spinach polenta with a mushroom/mustard/maple pan sauce.

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If you are new to polenta, instant polenta is a great way to start.  Literally ready in just a couple minutes.  However, that package gave directions for making the whole package – 2 liters of water to that package, which was way too much to make.  A quick google search and I used 5 cups water to 1 cup instant polenta.  Some people don’t put their polenta in until the water is boiling.  But I think you get clumpy polenta that way, so I start by pouring in the polenta in the cold water, whisking it, then cooking over medium heat, stirring every so often, until it’s nice and thick.  

I took 1/2 cup of polenta and mixed it with fresh chopped spinach on the side, and topped it with 1/2 an ounce of cheddar cheese – my side dish was 6 smart points.

Since the pork was already cooked, I only needed reheat it quickly in my cast iron skillet.  In a small skillet, I sauteed mushrooms in 1/2 teaspoon of ghee (1) removed the mushrooms when they were cooked, then mixed the following together:

  • 1/2 cup chicken broth
  • 1/2 teaspoon corn starch
  • 1 tablespoon stone ground mustard
  • 1 teaspoon maple syrup
  • 1 tablespoon plain Chobani
  • salt and pepper
  • 1 teaspoon dried parsley

Mix the above ingredients and pour into the hot pan the mushrooms were in.  It will take just a couple minutes to thicken up to pour over your pork.  The sauce is 1 point, the pork was 4 points, and with the ghee (1) the mushrooms cooked in, the protein portion of the plate also was 6 smart points.  12 delicious points for this whole plate – it was hearty, delicious and comfort food for my soul.

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I do find it ironic that I ate WW friendly meals and kept track of my points even while the baby chocolate chip cookies were finding their way into my mouth.  But I also have to remember that back in the day when I didn’t care what I ate, a typical day would be this:  Breakfast: Burger King Croissant breakfast with hashbrowns (33 points) – mid morning snack: Diet Dr. Pepper and a Suzy-Q (7)  Lunch:  Sbarro pepperoni pizza with a side of garlic bread with marinara (26).  Dinner:  two cups pasta with Italian sausage and more garlic bread (homemade of course – duh!) (30).  And then after Hannah went to bed, probably ate two cups of Ben & Jerry’s phish food ice cream, which under today’s smart points, would be a whopping 53 points!  That typical day for me would be 149 smart points, or roughtly the equivalent of nearly five days of food. 

So looking at this big picture, I know I am not going to revert back to eating like that anymore, just wish I didn’t feel like food is going to be the answer to whatever is bothering me.  

Curious what your thoughts are on this – do you run to food too?  

I have a picky plate for breakfast this morning, and then having lunch out with a co-worker today.  We used to talk to each other every day, but since our move we are on opposite sides of the office.  It’s a diner type place, so I know I’ll be able to get soup or something healthy.  I am thinking the 1/2 turkey sandwich and tomato soup.  Yum!

Alright, the train is almost in the station, so hitting publish and going to try not to spill my coffee for the third time this train ride. šŸ˜›

Make it a great day!