35 days ago yesterday, I was determined to be “back on!” and I zeroed out my Zero scale and decided it was a fresh start. Well that was when Tony went to the hospital and I never would have guessed 36 days later I would be a widow. My Aunt and I were talking and our cousin, when she became a widow, said that word didn’t fit her because she was young and not 85 years old all dressed in black. Some of those days were a blur to me – I know I’ll go back and read my blog when the time comes, but let’s just say eating and exercising were the furthest things from my mind. I ate hospital food. I ate pizza and pasta. I grabbed McDonald’s when I could. Not sure a vegetable passed my lips other than a French fry, so pretty sure that doesn’t count as a veggie serving.
But yesterday I stepped on the scale. Seriously you thought I would see +8 on the scale, but was shocked to see this:
But then I thought about it. I did a lot of grazing eating, and while it may have seemed to me that I was eating a lot, maybe I wasn’t? All I know is that it’s a Christmas Miracle that I maintained my weight through losing Tony.
I used some of my Starbuck’s gift card money and got a protein box, and somehow my mouth said “and I’ll have a baby vanilla scone!” I love this plate.
I went to the gym at lunch. My gym sent me a condolence card, which I thought was nice. I only told one of the gym members about Tony because he always asked how he was doing. At one time he was going to try to help Tony find a job, but I kept telling him that Tony wasn’t healthy enough yet, and he always said “when he’s healthy you let me know, okay?!” I saw him last week after not seeing him for a couple weeks and he stopped his run and asked about Tony. I simply said “he passed away” and before I could say anything else, I started to cry, then he started to cry and he jumped off the treadmill and gave me a big hug. He said “If you need anything, help around the house, something is broken, you let me know, okay?” So sweet.
I decided I still had plenty of food in the house to get me through the week. I ended up making what I am calling a tex-mex chicken and rice soup. After this picture was taken I added a bit more broth, the rice was stingy and soaked it all up! I love the edamame in this soup.
And so it begins with office treats – they are starting to come in on a daily basis now, but I am happy to say, I haven’t eaten a single office treat this year. And there is toffee in that basket!
After work I had to pick up a couple small gifts so I stopped by Tuesday Morning. I am kicking myself for not buying this yesterday because you know how that store goes – if you see it, and want it, buy it because it probably won’t be there the next time you go. I think this would be cute in a kitchen or dining room.
And I came home to more loot love! Blog reader and Instagram follower Bonnie sent me a Sur La Table gift card – you know I will put that to good use – thanks Bonnie!
Blog reader Michelle (MB) sent me a Starbucks gift card and some money for whatever I want to use it for – MB, if that fork piece above is still there today, I am going to use the money to buy it – then it will only cost me $20!
And blog reader Amie sent me a gorgeous charm bracelet! OMG, when I read the charm I cried you guys – it says “half my heart is in heaven.” She said that sapphire is Tony’s birthstone and she knows that blue is my favorite color. I love it!!
Heather, you’ll be happy to know that I used the spiralizer you gave me for the first time, and well, just like you, I don’t really get it. The picture on the box shows these gorgeous strands of zucchini, but all I got was small strands and then ended up with a pointy zucchini and I tried working it several ways, but never got the results I wanted. I’ll need to see if there is a youtube demonstration on this!
I bought a New York strip over the weekend with blog reader Liz’s Fresh Market gift card. I just let the steak come to room temperature and simply put cracked black pepper and salt flakes on the steak. Since this was a thicker steak, I did 3x3x2x2 – three minutes the first two sides, and then two minutes the second two sides. I sauteed the zucchini ribbons in a bit of butter, salt and pepper and made salt and pepper potato chips on the side. I think this is the first meal I’ve made at home for myself since Tony passed away.
Perfect medium rare! I only ate half the steak, and plan on making a steak and egg burrito with part of the leftover steak this morning for breakfast. So good.
Oh, and yesterday I talked about my friend Dana a.k.a The Kitchen Witch’s favorite post of mine, but had a senior moment and forgot to put in the link. She’s an amazing writer, but this piece always stuck with me. Go check it out for me, okay? Dana, I just realized I’ve “known” you since 2009 – so crazy!
Alright, I literally have about 8 minutes to get dressed and out the door. I am not sleeping well these last couple weeks and I may have slept in until 7:30 this morning, and I have to leave my house at 8:05!
Make it a great day!