One thing I’ve noticed since Tony has been in the hospital. I hardly ever turn the t.v. on, but instead have Pandora playing on the computer while I am in the kitchen and working on the blog. Second? I am kind of a slob! Growing up I know I drove my Mom crazy with how messy my room was. It was literally covered from one corner of the room to the other with just stuff. Mostly clothes – half clean half dirty. Hey, I did the smell test before I put anything on though! And then all of a sudden I would look around and I couldn’t stand it anymore, and I’d clean my room from head to toe and I think my parents were secretly taking bets on how long it would last.
Usually after dinner I like to have the kitchen cleaned for the night before settling down to watch t.v. with Tony. I don’t know what it is, but if he starts putting on a movie and I haven’t cleaned up the kitchen I start to get antsy. But lately? I’ve taken my pajamas off in the bathroom, leave them on the floor, take a shower and never put them in the dirty clothes. The other night I had the same pot soaking on top of my stove for three days and it didn’t bother me in the least!
So Sunday night when I got home, I still had the urge to get bizzy in my kitchen. But it was nearly 8:30 by the time I got home, and I didn’t want anything too complicated. Who knew that flour tortillas were that easy to make? I followed this recipe to the T – except I actually used a salad plate to get a perfect circle for each tortilla. Best part is that the dough will stay good for up to a week before it needs to be frozen. I only cooked off two tortillas, and ended up using just one for my breakfast this morning.
Here they are on my counter cooling before I could put them in my lunch bag. The dough just rests 10 minutes before you pan fry them up to cook through – take her advice and roll out the dough thinner than you think, because they will puff up during the cooking process. That spatula, plate and flour on my counter? I didn’t clean that up until last night – what is wrong with me?!
I made an egg white/spinach/spicy breakfast sausage and cheese burrito with half a fuji apple. I was a bit worried because the tortillas were really hard after they cooled down, but once I tossed them in the microwave they were soft, tender and oh so delicious.
I was actually a bit busy again at work, which I wasn’t expecting, but it was a nice pace after the crazy day I had on Friday. I snuck out to the gym around 12:15. I did arms on the weights, and did 2.25 on the treadmill.
Over the weekend I picked up some pork fried rice for lunch to bring to the hospital. It was okay – I kicked up the leftovers a notch by adding some shrimp, carrots and zucchini to it and added a lot of sriracha.
So I ended up heading straight to the hospital after work. Earlier in the day one doctor said that Tony could be transferred to the transplant hospital as soon as yesterday or today to get the ball rolling in that direction. Around six another doctor came in and said “he’ll definitely still be in this facility through Wednesday.” WTF? Here we thought we were stepping in the right direction and we seem to be in a holding pattern. Tony is tired, frustrated to say the very least. I can’t even begin to imagine what he is going through right now. He’s had more surgeries in his lifetime than anyone I’ve ever known. Now that we have a plan he wants to go full throttle – but I am not sure how fast this process is going to be, and that’s likely to get him more frustrated. It breaks my heart to see him like that.
I ended up heating up more chili – this time balancing it on the ledge beside Tony’s bed while my phone is charging. I should start charging you guys money for all these awesome food photography tips – ha!
I did manage to get all my steps in too!
So now we wait and see what today brings us. Again all your support has been amazeballs! I literally couldn’t keep it together if it wasn’t for you guys, and for that, I am eternally grateful. Make it a great day!
Nothings wrong with you…you can leave dishes in the sink and dirty pots on the stove and clothes on the floor….it’s okay. Being a homemaker can be lots of work….sometimes it is nice just to be a homebody and enjoy the home too.
Those tortillas look really good. Had a few last night with a cheese burger on them, dipped in taco sauce. Man that was good.
Making Lasagna soup tonight. Only 23 batches, I am way behind you. Take care of yourself Biz….tomorrow you should be getting a package in the mail….enjoy!!!
I hope the doctors can get on the same page. And healing will come to Tony soon.
Keep looking up.
Y’all are in my thoughts and prayers. I hope they can find a donor quickly and get it done sooner rather than later.
I make tortillas ALL the time because I have a salt free recipe and the store bought ones are horrendeously high in that. Plus I love my rolling pin. 🙂
Just catching up – sorry I haven’t been around. FB has about been my speed these last few weeks. Love and miss you all.
Extra mess signals a distracted mind, which, yeah, ya think?? There’s a lot going on, a lot of uncertainty, and of course you’re going to be discombobulated. No worries – just keep doing what you need to in order to maintain your sanity.
Sending lots of hugs!!! I am so far behind on my blog reading; what a tough year for you guys. Sending lots of good vibes. Hang in there and I hope you get good news soon.
I don’t know how you get through each day 🙁 I would be in a corner crying. Make sure you take care of YOU <3
I love that you admitted to the world that you don’t clean your kitchen right away – too funny! 🙂 I don’t either, just because I’m lazy. Pots and pans get washed as needed and eventually everything gets cleaned at once, usually on the weekend when I have a little more time. It doesn’t hurt anyone, though I do think it drives my husband a little nuts. I’m so impressed that you got a workout in yesterday – you go, girl! I was hoping to take a walk today but the high is only supposed to be 32 so we’ll see… I hope you have a good day and get some good news at the hospital! 🙂
Allyson is right, your brain is just prioritizing. I can’t imagine the frustrations you both are feeling. I am very happy to hear that Tony is at least on the transplant list. I bet your kitchen photo drove Hannah crazy . I know she is your “cleaning and organizing freak”
( which is meant as a good thing 🙂
Morning Biz, I know from what we are going through with my mom, that when there are different teams of doctors involved…..things move very slowly….making it very difficult on the patient and the family. And then all of a sudden things will move very fast. Hang in there….you are doing awesome! Going to follow your lead and make some cookies for the nurses taking care of my mom…..thinking you both
Nothing at all wrong with you — you’ve got a tidal wave of stress,emotions, care and love going on — that’s the priority and your brain is coping the best way it can…all the other peripheral stuff is just that…it’s just stuff. Selective prioritizing in order to keep you going full steam ahead. Hugs, hugs, more hugs and love and support and good energy vibes being sent up the Mississippi River to you guys in IL. =)
Sending prayers and hugs your way, Biz. You both are in my thoughts.
Girl you would drive me crazy. A kitchen not cleaned up after dinner? It would drive me nuts, the horror!
Seems to me a bit that nobody really knows what has to be done and that there are too many doctors involved at the moment. Hopefully you get some answers soon what the next step will be. I can totally imagine how frustrating this is for Tony (and you).
Don’t beat yourself up too much about the mess–you are under enormous stress right now. I am proud of how you are handling things, Beth.
Hugs to you Biz! You and Tony are in my thoughts and prayers!