I hardly even know where to begin. A week ago today we decided that Tony definitely more attention other than his weekly blood tests that regulated his medications. Seven days later, lots of tests, differences of opinion, etc. – the consensus now is that Tony needs a transplant. Maybe just the kidneys but maybe the liver too. It’s a tricky situation. His heart failure caused his liver to be cirrhosis, now the liver is causing kidney failure, but his liver disease isn’t bad enough for them to just transplant that organ, but since the kidney is involved, the hope is that he goes in for a kidney transplant and “while they are there” they may just transplant is liver too.
It’s been an emotional roller coaster to say the least. So many hands in the pot, so to speak. One doctor says one thing, one thinks another. And these are all very skilled doctors in their field, but Tony’s case is so complicated. Let’s think about it. In the last seven years:
- endocarditis that caused his aortic heart valve to be replaced with a mechanical one
- infection of his artificial knee implant, that had to be removed for three months, then replanted, only to have a titanium rod now from his ankle to almost his hip in his right leg
- colon cancer
- getting a hernia from the colon cancer surgery, which he contracted c-diff, only to need a wound vac for four months until the incision healed
- and now this is our sixth hospital stay between home and Mayo clinic in 2014
He now has congestive heart failure, a mitral valve leak, liver disease, a blood disorder that causes his red blood cells just “burst” when hitting his artificial heart valve and don’t get back to where they need to be, and now kidney failure. All we know is that this is a BIG deal, and with all that he has going on, it’s going to be a long/slow process. I know today he’ll be getting more dialysis. After three days on and two days off, his kidneys showed no signs of working on their own again. When I go in this morning, I’ll see what the plan is for the next couple days.
Saturday night I got home from the hospital around 8:30. I had every intention of getting stuff done in the kitchen, laundry, etc., but I made a fatal mistake. I used Tony’s electric blanket in my comfy chair in the back family room. It was so toasty, I was tired and relaxed, and I think I fell asleep around 9:30 and work up at 11:15, just to shut everything down and go to bed.
So Sunday morning I was raring to go. I made another batch of the cinnamon streusel banana muffins for the nurses, and I made a batch of chili. My friend Nicole from Prevention RD has done a chili contest on her blog for about five years now? Readers submit their favorite chili recipes, Nicole cooks them up and declares a winner that gets a prize. Her latest entry was “Katie’s Chili.” I was intrigued from the get go because it had 1/4 cup of Worcestershire sauce, two kinds of chili powder and a whole bottle of chili sauce. Huh. It also had FOUR cans of your preferred canned beans, and I love a bean heavy chili. So here were my selections:
Her recipe called for Guinness, which I don’t like as a beer, but I like it in things, but I couldn’t buy just one. So I went with this polish beer that was $1.49 for the can. I drained the kidney beans and black beans, but just poured the applewood smoked beans and the chili beans right in the pot. I also couldn’t find ancho chili powder, so subbed in chipotle chili powder. Other than that, I followed her recipe to a T. I have no idea of chipotle chili pepper is spicier than ancho chili powder, but boy howdy did this chili have a kick! It was smoky, complex in flavors, you didn’t feel the heat of the chili powder until the second or third bite. It is a winner winner chicken dinner!
Don’t let that shitty photo deter you. Tony was sleeping and I was trying to be quiet, so Nicole, hope you don’t mind that I “borrowed” our photo so that people will actually make it.
This is thick, hearty, spicy, beany and just all around amazeballs. Thanks for sharing Katie’s recipe with the world Nicole! So while the chili was cooking I had time to make another batch of muffins for the nurses. They literally cooled in the back of my car on the way to the hospital – more thumbs up! I made a note to let people know there were nuts in them, and also I wanted to make sure I got my basket back!
When I got to the hospital Tony said he hadn’t slept much the night before. His lower back was hurting him, and he was waiting for some pain meds, which he requested an hour earlier. Well, I don’t wait when it comes to pain meds, so I called his nurse, and within a few minutes they were giving Tony dilaudid (I think that’s how you spell it) but it is the one pain medication that takes it all away for Tony. So with that, me holding his hand and me just being there, I did my job as sleep whisperer.
Do you want to know what is worse than sitting in a hospital room all day? Sitting in a hospital room all day that had football not only on the t.v. in the room, but I was able to figure out how Tony could stream the NFL red zone on his laptop. And he had the remote in a tight grip and I couldn’t do a single thing about it. Longest day of my life.
He actually slept through the whole Bears game! I finally left around 7:30. I still had to go to the grocery store and pick up a few things for the week. Needed to finish laundry, pack my gym bag for lunch, put my food together for the week, etc.
I have to give a shout out to blog reader Moe! She was so sweet and sent me the funniest card and a Starbuck’s gift card. She’s been reading my blog for a couple years but just now came out of the woodwork. Thanks again Moe!
Alright, time to hit the shower and head to the hospital before work today. I know for sure he’ll get more dialysis today and then we’ll see what the next few days bring us. Again, thank you doesn’t seem like enough for all your comments, emails, Facebook messenger, etc. It means more to me than you’ll ever know. Make it a great day! Hugs!
Just giving another reminder that there are a lot of us out here in
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Well, howdy doo. <—this is me saddened and shocked. I knew what you told me earlier but I didn't realize his kidneys were that bad. I seem to be in good company. I don't know what to say Bizzy, except I know some of what Tony has going on, but as of yet no spare parts [heart valve and knee replacement] as your big man does. God Bless you both.
All I can say is . . . I'm here for you always, heck you probably ought to talk to Steven instead – you guys are the real troopers. You're amazing. You both will forever, every night, be in my prayers. Always in my thoughts. Know I love you girlie.
Biz, I’m so sorry to hear all the things you and Tony are having to deal with. You are such a strong, amazing woman, hang in there! I’m sending your family many thoughts and prayers every day.
I’m so sorry to hear about Tony. Keeping both of you in my prayers and will add you to our prayer chain also 🙂 And I think a lot more nights cozied up with Tony’s electric blanket should be in order! 🙂 Take care and thinking of you and your family.
I am so sorry to hear about Tony and what you are going threw. I know it must be hard to be at work and do it all. Your a super women. Please take care of yourself to. I wished I lived closer. I will be thinking of you and Tony.
Huggs
Larry
Oh Biz, I’m so sorry to hear this. Thinking of you both.
Hi Biz:
I’ve been following you for a couple years now and am so sorry to hear about what you and your husband are facing. I know you have a lot on your plate right now. I followed you when you were working a 2nd job to help make ends meet and just wanted to ask if you and Tony have looked into applying for Social Security Disability? I would think that he would qualify especially with his most recent diagnosis. It is crucial to apply and get an “application date” as payment can be retro up to 12 months back. There is a list of health issues that are considered for a quicker approval, I just cant think of the exact title. I had a family member get approved in about 6 months or so. I hope you don’t mind me bringing this up… My prayers are with you and your family. God Bless!
Oh, Biz! I am sorry. It sounds as if you all are facing a lot…and a long road, but you have a lot of fans praying for you and rooting you along. Day by day, step by step…that’s all you can plan for, I suppose! And hope…because at the end of this journey, we can hope and pray that he will feel like himself again. Hugs {{ }} Hang in there. I will say a prayer for you, for Tony, and for Hannah.
Sending lots of prayers and hugs!
Oh Bizzy–sending you all of the good wishes out there that Tony gets everything he needs as soon as possible. You’re such a good sport for enduring so much NFL for him in the hospital room!
Biz – you are one tough cookie. You cooked, baked, AND endured a day of football all in the name of love. I pray that with you by his side, Tony’s gonna tackle this setback like a boss! I’ll be lifting up you, your family and Tony’s caregivers. It’s heavy stuff. Sending you both wishes for peace and rest, too.
Thinking of you
One day at a time. I’m so sorry. Please know we’re all rooting for you and Tony…from near and far. Hugs!
Oh my, Biz, I was not expecting this when I stopped by today. I’m so very sorry. That’s a lot to have on your plate. Sending tons of positive healing thoughts for Tony and strength for you! XOXO
OH, Biz – I’m so sorry that there isn’t a quick fix for Tony!!! I hate that there isn’t something I can do to help you right now – I will just keep praying for both of y’all and all the Drs!!! Hang in there!!!
Biz and Tony, my gosh. Where to begin? To hell and back with Tony’s health wouldn’t even begin to cover it, I don’t think. I wish I knew more about renal failure due to non-chronic issues – all I know is kidney failure due to diabetes/hypertension. The organs are so interrelated, it’s complicated…clearly. But I can’t imagine the frustration (and scariness) over hearing physicians with differing opinions. All my thoughts and prayers. Tony has rebounded from so much and he has one kick ass woman at his side in doing so 🙂 Hugs to you both – I’ll be thinking of you, as always…plus some extra 🙂 Please keep us updated and keep making delicious chili 🙂 xo
I am so, so sorry to hear this Biz. I wish I was there to give you a ‘real hug’, so please accept this ‘virtual hug’ instead. Keep your head up (as you always do), I know you two will get through this!
((((((HUGS)))))) My heart sank when I read your title. As always, my thoughts and prayers are with you both.
So sorry you and Tony have to go through this. I’ll keep you both in my thoughts and send some good vibes your way. Take care of yourself , keep your wits about you, eat well, sleep well and find some peace. Lynne.
Thank goodness you got him to the hospital a couple days ago. Stay strong.
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Comments = virtual hugs and prayers for Tony and you in Jesus Name. Glad you got some needed rest Saturday night. Wish I could help you in some way….but know I am thinking about you and praying too.
Hello Biz,I am so sorry to read about this new setback for Tony.With all the new technology they have these days,I am sure he will be fine. Ofcourse prayers always help. I have been meaning to ask you something.Please don’t take it the wrong way. I would like it if you could put a paypal account on your blog so someone who wants to can help you. You are such a inspiration to a lot of people and specially me. I wish I was like you ,a wonderful wife,mother and daughter.Big hugs Biz
As always – sending lots of prayers, hugs and get well wishes your way!
Nothing but hugs and love to you both!!!!!!
Hi Biz, I don’t know what to say, but that I care and hate to see you both going through all of this.
Oh Biz. My thoughts and prayers always! Love ya!
Sending prayers and positive/healthy vibes your way. And like it’s been mentioned, take care of yourself, he’s already in good hands.
Oh my. I am so sorry to read all of this. I can’t imagine what you are feeling right now. Praying hard for both of you and that Tony finds his perfect (donor) match. He’s already got you as his perfect match!
Just catching up on your blog while I eat breakfast, which is my favorite way to start my work day. I’ve been away for a few days so I didn’t know about the latest health news for Tony. My heart goes out to you. You are so strong, and so loving. I’ve never (yet) gone through this with a loved one so I can only imagine the toll it takes. The uncertainty…life sure can be hard sometimes. I just wanted to write a note, to add to all the other notes of support, so you know that there are many out here who admire you and who are in your corner, wishing you all the best. And urging you to be kind to yourself, because I know you tend to be hard on yourself as if you’re not doing it right, or doing enough, even when you’re giving 100 percent. You both will be on my mind as you continue living through this difficult time. Hugs. Steph in Vancouver, WA
Sending love and prayers!
I know how scary this is, but it’s going to be OK…just hang on, both of you.
My heart goes out to you to and this situation. I pray for Tony’s healing. I pray a donor match is found quickly so Tony can be on the mend. And that card is fabulous.
Your positive attitude always astonishes me and whenever I’m feeling like my whole world is going to shit, I think of you and how graceful you’ve handled all the curveballs your life has thrown you. You are such an inspiration, Biz. Reading this today just hurts my heart and I don’t even know you guys, so I can’t even begin to imagine how you and Tony are feeling. LOTS of love and healing wishes to you both. We’re all pulling for you. ♥
Oh my…my heart just goes out to you two. I pray that things turn for the better, much much better. Sending virtual hugs, real prayers and tons of love your way. Hang in there. One day, one hour, one minute at a time.
So sorry to hear this bad news. I can’t imagine what you and Tony are going through but I will keep both of you in my prayers. I know this is super hard on you as well. Take care and just try to take it one day, one minute at a time.
Lordy, I am so sorry to hear this. If I had a kidney match to give, I would do it for you guys in a heartbeat! I am amazed that you are able to function but I know how that inner strength just kicks in for you. Know of my continued prayers for you guys!
I thought of you guys a lot this last weekend. I am keeping you both in my prayers. Chin up lots of people uplifting you both:) to the father in prayer. Take Care.
As always your positive outlook is so inspiring. Even with all the hurdles you still find the light. Positive thoughts and healing energy being sent your way. The chili looks scrumptious. I may have to give it a try tonight. We are actually getting some colder weather.
Wow!!! The diagnosis is tough…you need as many virtual hugs as you can handle. Please take care of yourself…the caregiver often gets lost in the shuffle. Tony is in good hands…any thoughts of going back to Mayo for the transplants? I agree with others my daughter has spent alot of time in the hospital, and I baked ALL the time for the nurses. They do love it and I do think they give better care to the patient. You are both at the top of my prayer chain. xxoo
Can’t even imagine what Tony has been through all this time. I was stunned to read all that he has suffered these past years, and my heart goes out to him! Give him a sweet hug for me and as you hold up his arms, we are holding YOU BOTH up in our prayers! You are indeed one in a million as wives go Biz! You are a great and wonderful example to all the young wives out there! Bless you!
Bringing muffins to the nurses is a great idea! I am convinced they take better care of someone if you give them treats. My secret weapon is chocolate. I always bring chocolate to the nurses. Homemade muffins are probably even better.
Her chili picture may be magazine worthy but your chili picture is REAL! I would totally make it off of your picture. I’d have to add onions of course though. I can’t even imagine chili without onions.
Stay strong, remember that you rock. Tony’s lucky to have you.
Sending positive vibes, virtual hugs and prayers!
Can’t add anything to the numerous well wishes and thoughts for you and Tony. I’m glad you got some good sleep with the electric blanket the other night. Important for you to take care of yourself! Crucial, in fact, given that it sounds like you and Tony have much to navigate in the coming weeks.
Lifting you both up in prayer. You have been through so much! Even though I don’t get a chance to comment every day, please know you are in my thoughts. Praying for renewed strength for you and total healing for Tony.
Whoa, what a huge thing to wrestle with this weekend. You both must feel like you’ve been hit by a truck. Sending you love, luck, white light, hugs and lots of positive healing juju. xoxo
Just want you to know that I believe in prayer and am sending some up for Tony and yourself everyday.
So sorry Biz. But again, I hope you know that as sick as he is, he is right where he should be frustrating doctors and all! Hugs.
One day at a time… I will continue sending positive thoughts and will say an extra prayer. Take care of you!
I’m sending positive thoughts and heartfelt prayers your way.
I am speechless, what can I say that would help you. This is a big setback for the both of you and bad news. All I can say is that I hope things turn for the better soon for the both of you and that I’ll be thinking about you.
Sending you a HUGE hug! And sending lots of good thoughts and prayers your way.
I don’t even know where to begin on this comment. I remember writing months (years?) back that yall deserved to never have to go to a hospital again after all you’ve been through. What is the timeline for the transplant? Did they put him on the list or can people get tested to see if they’re a match? The chili and the muffins both look rocking #luckynurses. My heart is always with you both
Will be praying Biz! What a roller coaster – but so glad you keep your sense of humor in it all.
Oh my! What a roller coaster you two have been on. I hope things level out soon and Tony can get his transplant. It just has to be mind boggling in the meantime!!
Best,
Bonnie
Wow, I am sooo sorry to hear the recent news Biz. I am doubling and tripling up my prayers for Tony. It’s just doesn’t seem fair sometimes when good people get sick. I will keep you all in my prayers hoping for a speedy recovery. I don’t know how you do it, keeping busy helps I guess. Hang in there and remember there are tons of people praying for you all.