It’s been way too long of me sitting on the side lines these last few months. I don’t know if I am having a mid-life crisis or what, but ever since Tony went to the Mayo Clinic this summer, I haven’t been able to keep it together. Sure, on the outside you wouldn’t know that I am any different. But with the fear of the unknown with Tony’s health, you’d think that I would do everything in my power to keep myself as healthy as possible to be strong for the both of us. But it’s hard being strong for everyone all the time. Once I let the few extra licks and tastes enter the picture, next thing you know a couple days of skipped workouts, turns into a string of days.
Here’s the thing about when I exercise – I tend to be more careful what I eat because I think to myself “do you want that three bites of whatever to negate the one hour of working out you just did?!” 9 times out of 10, the answer is no. But when you take the exercise out of the equation, I just don’t give a shit about what I eat. And it seems that if the exercise is lacking, and the eating is lacking, then everything else starts to slack too – laundry piles up, I may go two weeks between mopping the kitchen floor, I don’t balance the checkbook as often. You get the idea.
Well, my pity party is over with. I can’t compare my life to anyone else. And while I am happy for my Facebook friend who is on their FOURTH vacation of the year stating “it’s so good to get away and relax” when every day seems relaxing to me in my book, I just need to . . . stop. One day I might think “why can’t we be the ones going on vacation?” to then thinking “you have everything you need, stop being greedy and appreciate the things you do have.”
While I can’t control the things around me all the time, I suddenly realized that between June and December of last year, shit was still going on, yet I managed to work out, stick with Insanity for 101 days straight and lost 20 pounds. All while Tony lost his job, bills were piling up and I was looking for a second job. Bottom line is, there is always going to be “stuff” going on in our lives, I just have to kick my ass and keep focused on getting healthy.
I put on my Healthy for 2014 Page on Facebook yesterday that I was just going to take it one day at a time. My goals for yesterday? Drink 64 ounces of water and not eating anything after dinner. Well, I succeeded at both!
Breakfast was an egg white/spinach/ham omelet with American cheese, hot sauce (duh!) and a slice of toast.
I cook my eggs in the microwave – so fluffy! Thanks again Mom for the egg cooker!
I decided to test out my knee just by walking. I didn’t want to do anything too strenuous and I enjoyed watching the Chew while walking for 40 minutes and doing 2.5 miles. I will say though, after favoring my right leg for so long, the left leg is definitely weaker than the other. I had to consciously force myself to put the same amount of weight on each leg while I was walking – I actually broke a sweat!
When’s the last time you saw a gym selfie?!
I made a pot of chicken noodle soup over the weekend. I also brought a sandwich, but it was already 1:00 in the afternoon, and I thought the soup would be enough to tide me over until dinner time. Um, I may like a little noodle in my soup!
But I actually got hungry around 3:45. I finally found the pumpkin Chobani, it was on sale too for .89 cents each, but I only bought one in case I didn’t like it.
Holy balls, this was delicious! It kind of tasted like a pumpkin pudding, if that makes any sense. I could detect cinnamon and nutmeg. I need to run back to the store and scoop the rest up!
I had all the fixings leftover from my Reuben pizza I made over the weekend. Oh, I just realized I put it on Facebook and Instagram (are you following me on Instagram? mybizzykitchen). This is a recipe contest so I can’t give out the recipe, but I made a Reuben pizza – I’ve made Reuben pizzas before using rye flour, but it didn’t have the best texture. Well, I hit this one out of the park – the contest states that you had to make your own dough and sauce for the recipe. Swear this tastes EXACTLY like a Reuben!
So when Tony wanted his burger with caprese salad, I knew I was going to have a Reuben burger. Tony’s plate:
And my burger. Three ounce beef, almost as much sauerkraut, an ounce of melted Swiss cheese, and my homemade thousand island dressing – I can only tell you that I used Chobani greek yogurt in the dressing. I had a leftover baked potato so I made fries out of it, and drizzled my fries with sriracha ketchup.
I ended up eating all of the burger, and half the fries. I was full and stopped myself from overeating – yeah! I cleaned up the kitchen and deemed the “kitchen closed for the night.”
Oh, and guess who got the battery on their fitbit replaced! I am back to all my fitbit friends! If you have a fitbit and want to be friends, email me at mybizzykitchen@gmail.com and I’ll send you an invite to be friends.
I swear I had over 10,000 steps by the time I got home – I even showed Tony, but for whatever reason, when I synced up, it said I only had 1187, which is probably what I walked last night – huh? Maybe because I hadn’t synched up in a while? Oh well, I know I did the steps, and that’s all that matters.
Alright – time to get stuff together. I actually have time to do Classical Stretch before I need to leave for work – go me! Make it a great day!
First of all, I had to buy one of those egg cookers on amazon!! I have seen you post so much about how much you like it, and I REALLY need to start eating better breakfasts in the morning. Done and done.
Second, I must find that Chobani flavor. I wish I could find it for the cheap!
I am sending you the biggest hug I can!!!!!! You have had SOOOO much to cope with, so please don`t beat yourself up! Life gets in the way of the best laid plans, and all we can do is own it, and move forward! Love to you and Tony!
Yes, yes, yes! to this post. I can totally relate and empathize with you on this! I spend so much time taking care of everyone else. At work, I have the lives of 30 people in my hands. At home, taking care of our family takes a lot of time, and a lot of that effort goes to MAK’s care. I am in grad school, which is something that I am doing for me but it just seems to pile up lately. Most of the time, I feel like I just have to “take care of” everyone else and I don’t ever take care of me! Doing this paleo challenge has been good, because I was quickly able to see that my mindset was all kinds of f*cked up. Over the past 5 years of this yoyo weight loss journey, I’ve learned that my weight management is almost solely dependent on my MINDSET. I can do all the workouts and healthy recipes in the world, but if I am stressed out or unmotivated in any way, all of the good stuff doesn’t matter.
And I don’t know how people can afford to go on vacation all the time, either! MAK and I just barely squeaked out our road trip to Florida for Christmas last year (and we weren’t even able to bring B2 with us). It was the first vacation we’d been on since we went to Kansas City for one of our “this is getting serious” dates. I am smart with my money and try to save as much as possible, but with our limited incomes and bad life juju, something always happens that depletes our savings in one fell swoop. It’s so frustrating sometimes, but then I remember that I have a roof over my head and food on my plate, and it isn’t so bad. 🙂
I hope your husband is doing okay Erin – keep me posted! With all that you have going on, I can see why at the end of the day there is no time left for you. I don’t have that excuse – yes, we’ve had doctor appointments and hospital stays this year, but that’s no excuse to eat a whole pizza by myself (um, I may have done that in January when Tony was in the hospital!)
I saw this quote on Pinterest – love it!
I know what you mean I have had the same during the Summer. Only you had a good reason for feeling that way with everything that was going on in your life. I had nothing and I still don’t know what happened, why I lost my mojo and for such a long time (at least 3 months). But I’m back in the game, just like you and we are going to do this. I’m already your Fitbit friend, going to taunt you instead of cheer you to get you to 10,000 steps every day.
I have stopped looking at other people long time ago. I appreciate my own life, wouldn’t have it any other way.
Ha – well I will taunt you right back Fran! We’ve got this!
Even strong people can’t (and shouldn’t) be strong all the time. You’ve been through a lot over the past months. I really admire how you’ve been able to keep going. Take care of yourself!!
Best,
Bonnie
Thanks Bonnie – I hope you are enjoying this awesome fall day today!
I’ve got the exercise thing going on, but my eating has been out of control. That is definitely a goal for me…clean up the diet! And I LOVE the Pumpkin Spice Chobani! (and the Chobani with steel cut oats…yum!)
I haven’t seen the one with steel cut oats yet though, on the look out for that one. With all the wonderful things you bake, it’s no wonder you get those extra licks and tastes in – I would too!
Go you!! You can get this balance thing figured out—but when you do, please give me pointers 😉
Seriously, I know that if anyone can do this, you can. You are constantly an inspiration to me.
You are too sweet Karli – I don’t know how you do all you do with all the traveling (although secretly I’d love your job – just don’t have the education to do it!) #gobeef!