One thing I failed to mention about my quarterly diabetes doctor appointment, was that each and every visit, he looks over my digital chart and at some point or another says “I’d really like to see you in the 130 – 135 pound range for your height.” He said “you seem to be hovering between the high 150s and mid 160s these past several years – I’d like to see that number a bit lower.”
I told him I just wanted to be 5’10” tall and then it would all be fine! I know what I need to do – the same thing I did between June and December of last year – make exercise my #1 priority ever single day. I was reading my friend SuziCate’s blog yesterday. The title of her blog post was called “The Edge.” Go ahead and click on the link, I can wait. One sentence in particular struck a chord in me:
What is it you want to do? Lose weight? Learn to sew? Write a book? Play the piano? Sing? Paint? Take photographs? Take the first step today. Do it again tomorrow. Take it a step farther the day after that and so on. You can do whatever it is you want as long as you intend to do it.
I intend to lose weight, but my actions of late are not going to get me to where I want to be. I can’t use the excuse of working two jobs. I have no small children, I have the time, I just need to make exercise the priority again.
Yesterday morning I had a green monster – I forgot how much I love these! Only one tiny problem – I usually take half of the insulin when I begin to drink it, and then half when I am half way through it. It takes me so long to drink that I took all my insulin in the beginning, when I took my blood sugar an hour later it was 294!
I decided to do the StairMaster again to get to my goal of 100 flights in 20 minutes. I was sweating balls! And Rachel, thanks for the Facebook post for this recipe – it killed!
So close!
And my face was still pretty red even after a shower and back in my office parking lot! I ended up doing a total of 30 minutes on the StairMaster including the cool down, then 10 minutes of upper body and 5 minutes of stretching.
More lasagna soup for lunch – except I noticed yesterday that even though I used crushed tomatoes like I always use, it was a bit chunkier than I prefer. I decided to puree the soup part with the spinach in my smoothie maker – doesn’t look to pretty but it was delish! I’ll have the last of it for lunch today.
My store had filet mignon on sale a week ago – I never made it so it got put in the fridge and I defrosted it yesterday while I was at work. Check out the price!
I made Pioneer Woman’s Crash Hot Potatoes on the side. Super simple dinner.
I forgot my Fit Bit yesterday! I realized it half way to work. I have it on my pajama pants right now so I won’t forget today when I get into my work clothes.
This is my Friday! I am off my day job tomorrow and Friday and just work at the restaurant Friday and Saturday night. So if my post is late tomorrow, I’ll be sleeping in! 
Gotta get my shit together – make it a great day!
Love this post. Sometimes we just need that one thing to push us to the edge of finally doing what’s best for us. 😉
Re: the weight/height thing, I’m really surprised your doctor is still using that as a sort of metric, especially since you’ve been adding strength training to your regimen and that will add a little weight as you build up muscle. Just keep trucking on!
94!!! You’re so close!
Yep! I think next week I’ll hit 100!
I’ve been so impressed with your progress to far – keep it up!!!!!! and hey – love those pioneer woman potatoes, although we call them CRACK hot potatoes because they are so addicting! 🙂
They were delish! I hope you bring home some sunshine and warmth from Florida!
Uggggh, I am kind of mad at your doctor. OK so maybe he doesn’t know you work your tail off both with work and with working out and trying to watch what you eat and although he may be right, I think you deserve some credit! I would be in heaven right now if I were at your weight. So would my diabetes doc. LOL!! I don’t mean to discourage you from working harder but just in case you didn’t realize it, you kind of rock and by kind of I mean TOTALLY. 😀
Thanks V! I know once your weather gets better you’ll be taking lots of walks with Joshua – he’s so cute and getting so big already!
I think you are doing awesome Biz! And I love looking at the food you make. I rarely cook. I’m trying to change that. And yes, there is always something that needs to be changed. None of us are perfect! But we need to strive for progress, not perfection!
I loved this comment – progress, not perfection! Thanks Amanda!
Yes Biz, you rock!!!!! I am always in awe of you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Aw, thanks Jan!! Best cheerleader ever! 😀
You are doing great Biz. Period. Your Doctor should follow you around a day or two, then he would see how hard you are trying to lose with exercise and eating right. AND still enjoy life!!! My Doctor would say……….stop eating and lets give you more medication to bring down the blood sugar numbers!!!
Then there is the battle of buying “healthy food” that is costing more and more every day at the stores. A person has to watch and read labels of EVERYTHNG! So much sodium and sugar in everything we buy now a days. Staying away from processed foods, don’t eat this or that, eat this. Then 5 months down the road “they” are saying, oh it is okay to eat that, but not this!!!!!! I-yei-yei!!!! It’s a vicious circle!!
It’s all a big “Numbers” game and as hard as we try, we can’t always meet up with the expectations of others. I dislike people who live lavishly and eat all they want then point the finger at me and say “you are too fat, you must eat carrots and celery” and LOSE WEIGHT!!! Okay…I will get of my soap box….lol!!!
I agree with many of the comments above….you are doing so well and you inspire so many…..the pounds will come off……now that winter is over you will be out and about and enjoying the outside instead of being cooped up.
Hooray for Lasagna Soup and Vegie Marinara sauce…….my two faves, I ♥♥♥them both!!!!
Thanks for the pep talk Louise! And I agree with good foods being expensive, but it’s worth it in the end. So glad you are still loving the veggie marinara – I need to make some for myself this weekend!
It’s so hard to find that balance between wanting to just live your life, going along enjoying good food and wine, and also wanting to be skinny and super fit isn’t it? LOL.
Enjoy your days off!
Ha – I couldn’t agree more Helen. One side of me is like “f*ck it – I’ll take a slice of deep dish pizza” – and the other side says “get to the gym!:
I think you should eat the deep dish pizza while you are on the stair master at the gym 🙂
I totally agree with the others comments. You are an inspiration to all of us that read your blog. I’ve really been slacking lately on exercise and eating healthier and making excuses for both. I’m so glad you posted the link to SuziCate’s blog post. It was like she was talking to me! Happy Hump Day!
Thanks Sherry – yep, Suzi is an amazing writer!
Yes you can! Do it do it! Great job on your stepping- you’re so close. I legit need to get on that lasagna soup!!
Thanks for the cheering E!
In spite of what the doc said, you’re doing fantastic Biz! You’re so close on the stairmaster – I know you’ll be hitting 100 floors in 20 min. very soon!!
Enjoy your no-alarm morning tomorrow!! Whoohoo!!
Thanks Laura – I enjoyed my alarm not going off – I still got up at 8:30 though – not too bad!
Just keep at it. Besides the additional weight loss, exercise is just plain healthy for your body, mind, and soul!
I couldn’t agree more Heather – the sense of accomplishment when I finish a workout is the best. 😀
All I have to say is that you rock, Biz!
Thanks Carrie! I still think I need to road trip to MN this summer for beer and wine with you!
I bet you could out work that DR – both in the pool, the weight room, on the treadmill or stair climber and certainly with Insanity. I get that Drs focus on numbers but you are in good shape – you are strong and fit and that is more important than any number!!!
Thanks Kim!
You can do it Biz, I know once you set your mind to it you’ll kick some major ass once again! I also loved that blog post so thanks for sharing it. Great job on the 94 flights of stairs, so awesome!!
Thanks Sam! How are your goals coming along?
Well said SuziCate and ditto. Biz you are truly amazing. I can’t tell you how many times a week the words “well Biz did/said…” whatever amazing or inspiring thing you did. You would think you were a good friend who lived down the street as much as I mention you. You cook amazing food that is healthier than so many other options out there. You post recipes allowing each individual to change them as they need to so they will fit their personal lifestyle/diet, you wake up at the crack of dawn and drive in sub freezing temperatures to go to the gym and workout doing workouts that would knock me flat on my butt. You have posted such awe inspiring videos of others who push past both physical and mental barriers to work out. Your blog makes us laugh, cry and have the desire to make ourselves better. So tell your doctor to back off. He is just saying what the medical profession says he is suppose to say. Yes, weight loss is very important to our health if we are carrying extra weight. All of your readers will agree you have been working to achieve that special healthy number and with your constant efforts you keep getting closer. Okay I have rambled far too long. You ROCK!
I am your good friend, just in another state! 😀 Thanks for being such a great cheerleader Kym! 😀
Thanks for the shout out. You are an inspiration, Biz. I’ve been truly inspired watching how far you have come in your pursuits. While I don’t think I’ll ever be a marathon runner or an athlete I know I must get into shape. I started two weeks ago. I’ve started my own routine of exercise (don’t like the gym) and food management…and yes, I’ve given up my nightly glass of wine and weekends of trying out new craft beers. I’m not cutting things completely out, but I’m managing them by allowing them in moderation, like one alcoholic beverage a week, sweets a couple of times a week, increasing my raw veggie intake. I don’t weigh myself because years ago I spiraled out of control in an unhealthy competition with myself. This time I’m taking it slow and steady. I already feel results: more energetic and my clothes are a bit looser…and I can run around the block without exhausting myself! It will take me a while but I hope to get where I want to be. A high school friend recently died of a massive heart attack and stroke which was an incentive to get in shape, but you are the inspiration I look forward to reading about each day and keeping me in line…so thank you, Beth!
Thank you for your continued inspiration Suzi! Wow, that’s sad about your high school friend – it just shows that no one knows how long they will be here and to make the most out of each day – we are never guaranteed a tomorrow! Hugs!
Thanks for the extra inspiration – I’m not doing much right lately. I so appreciate your posts – they always give me a kick in the ass.! That soup is great no matter what it looks like! Have a great ‘Friday’ and enjoy those days off!
Thanks also for the referral to Suzicate’s blog. Her post was amazing – it spoke to me. Made me a bit sad for all the ‘edges’ I’ve created. I also have to say that I agree with the others about your Dr’s comment about your weight. He’s going by a scale number only, but I’m sure you would pass every fitness test with flying colors! You work very hard and you have to allow yourself some downtime to live life and let your body rejuvenate as well.
Thanks Lynne! And glad you like Suzicate’s blog – she’s an amazing writer and her words seem to touch me when I need them the most!