Not going to lie, a big part of me wanted to just go to bed Christmas Eve and wake up on December 26 and skip Christmas all together. My grief is still so raw that at any given moment I can feel myself start to tear up and it’s all I can do to not to go into a full blown crying fit right then and there.
But, life moves on. Without Tony and each day I have to just keep telling myself to put one foot in front of the other and just . . . get on with life.
The kids moved in on Wednesday, along with their two dogs. This is Rummy – she’s almost 3.
And here is Red, almost 12:
We decided to have wontons and fried rice for our Christmas Eve dinner. While the kids returned the moving truck, I whipped together the wontons.
I may have made a few! We had leftovers though. And my fried rice wasn’t anywhere near as good as Tony’s, but it was pretty tasty.
I made the Christmas tree of balls again – super big hit – every ball was eaten!
I started out our dinner with shrimp bisque – very tasty and a lot easier recipe than some of the others I found on Pinterest.
I ended up getting a beef tenderloin, because the price dropped right before Christmas – score!
I ended up using Tieghan’s rub on my tenderloin – it was really good! I ended up making a blue cheese sauce on the side, but turns out no one in Tony’s family likes blue cheese!
And you can never go wrong with crab legs! It was perfect timing because while I let the meat rest, I threw the crab legs in the oven at 375 and cooked them along with Hannah’s amazeball tater tot casserole – so simple – tater tots mixed with sour cream, cream of broccoli cheddar soup, milk and then cheese on top and bake it. It’s her signature dish
I love my new stove!! Not only do the burners get hot super fast, I got to use the internal meat probe for the beef – I can see exactly what temperature the meat is at the press of a button. Took it out at 125, rested the meat 20 minutes for perfect medium rare.
Here is the best picture of the night – me helping Hannah crack her crab legs! Um, let’s just say she didn’t like the sound or the taste of the crab legs. I actually have two legs leftover so I’ll be making a crab cake for myself over the weekend with the leftovers. Photo credit goes to my grand-nephew Sean!
Thanks to my brother for your box of loot – more Chex Mix! That stuff is like crack to me. And my niece made me this cute mug – love the color! It’s another Pinterest project – just a sharpie marker on a plain mug – love it!
I got this beautiful scarf from Shelley in the mail – she says she names all of her projects and this one is “give Biz a hug.” Love it! Thank you! It will definitely come into use because Hannah and I plan to be walking buddies!
I hope you all had a wonderful holiday, no matter what you celebrate. I plan on getting a lot of organizing done over the weekend, hit the gym, get some steps in and meal plan for next week. It’s been so long since I have done that! Have a great weekend – see you on Monday!
I’m glad you had plenty of company over the holidays. I’m sure Tony was on your mind, but having folks around seems way better than sleeping Christmas away. Still keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.
You are surrounded by so much love! So happy for you, Biz.
Love that scarf (I’m a scarf girl, myself) and the pooches! Looking forward to more photos of your grand-dogs! HA!
love the scarf!!!
I’m glad that Christmas is over and done – I know that holidays are really hard and this was so soon!!
Love your new scarf from Shelley!!
I have a FitBit again so hopefully I can follow along with you again!!!
I am glad that you were surrounded by your loved ones for Christmas. And love to hear you and Hannah are going to be walking buddies. It’s so much easier to go on a walk when you have dogs (who are by the way adorable) to bring with you.
I’m so glad you’re surrounded by wonderful family both for the holiday and (at least) the very near future–especially the four-legged sort. 🙂 Here’s to getting back into familiar habits soon!
I’m so glad you like the cowl/scarf – you look beautiful in it, but I agree with Cheryl…your eyes can’t hide the pain. I know this was a rough Christmas for you and I’m hoping that each day gets a little…not sure how to put it…easier? less hurty? I really don’t know, but I hate that you are hurting so much.
Dear Biz, looking at you in your picture with the scarf I can see the hurt in your eyes. You and Tony had a loving relationship with your own twist of humor. All I can say is thank you for allowing me to get to see a part of your and Tonys wonderful, crazy, sharp wit, down to earth tell it like it is and loving relationship. You are an inpiration to me on losing weight and your recipes the ones I have made are exactly how you say. You are a talented cook. Like you say take it by the day, hour and minute. My heart reaches out to you and a big hug to you.
Take care. Cheryl
I think there are many of us who can identify with the feeling of just powering through a holiday, but the thing is, once you do, it’s generally a good thing.
Also, I think when you feel like crying hard, you should just do it. Believe me, people around you WILL understand.
Love Shelley’s hug… and here’s one from me *HUG*
I’ve been thinking of you. Glad you are surrounded by family.
Enjoy your workouts over the weekend!
Major hugs and love coming your way. 5th Christmas without Dad and the 1st Christmas my Mom didn’t sob most of the day.
That scarf is beautiful!
I am glad you have family with you now supporting you.
You do such a great job on those potstickers, too.
Oh and the crab legs? I will tall alllll of Hannah’s. I loves me some crab legs!
Glad you had Hannah and her fiance with you! How are you guys going to handle all the cooking now that they’re moved in? Love their pups. The scarf is beautiful. I book marked that shrimp bisque- looks divine!
Merry Christmas! It looks like you had a wonderful time. I haven’t had an actual “Christmas meal” yet – my Mom just does a pot of chili and appetizers on Christmas Eve and then on Christmas Day B and I had leftovers before making the rounds at grandparent’s houses. By the time we got home, we shared a bag of popcorn and went to bed. We have another Christmas to go to on Sunday so that will be our ham dinner with all the fixins. I would have killed for beef tenderloin and crab legs yesterday! Hope you had a good Christmas, Biz! xoxo
And PS — I was going to make the Duggar family recipe of tater tot casserole for supper tonight and make a couple of burgers on the side. But HANNAH’s looks much better and I have all the ingredients on hand!
The kids are so lucky to be living with a chef. How can anyone not like crab legs? So happy you had friends and family around you. Sounds like you have a good weekend planned. Looking forward to seeing all of the dishes yo9u come up with for the week. Have a great weekend! ((Hugs))
That is a beautiful scarf.
I am happy Hannah and her fiancee moved in with you. And how lucky are they?! I am jealous!
Yep, Jacob pretty much loves anything I make, so that makes it easy! 😀
Your Christmas food made me drool! I hope your weekend is restorative for you.
Well, yesterday was half productive/half totally lazy! That’s the luxury of having two more days off! 😀
I made a spam & cheese sammie after coming home from Christmas eve service and I realized after cutting the plastic off the cheese, I had bought it for you! ( sorry) It was spicey gouda with habenero, jalopeno, and chipolte peppers in it. With each bite I took, my nose ran faster and more and my mouth was on fire! I will look for replacement cheese and each time I eat it, will think of you saying ” wow, this cheese is amazeballs!” You continue to be in my thoughts and prayers : )
Ha – that’s the best kind of heat when you get all sweaty and you still want to eat more! Hugs!
Biz~don’t know you in “real” life but have definitely been thinking and praying for you over the past few days. I am sure they were so hard but am glad you had a few good days. You are fortunate to have Hannah and crew there. Try to enjoy your weekend!
Thanks Erin for thinking and praying for me – Lord knows I needed it these last few days! It’s been a nice distraction having the kids and dogs here – the tiny one really is affectionate!
So glad that you were surrounded by loving family (even four-legged members). Your food looks amazing!! Wishing you healing and all the best for the new years.
Best,
Bonnie
Thanks Bonnie – you too! I am loving our weather!